LOOK AT THE SHADOW OF THIS SPONTANEOUS PIC - IT IS A SUCCESSFUL CONQUEROR (SIX OF WANDS). I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETED MY MASCULINE SIDE (WHICH THE COLORFUL HORSE ON MY RIGHT SIDE ALSO INDICATES.)!

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THIS IS WHAT MATTERS - NOT WHAT THE OLD PARADIGM NARCISSISTS INDOCTRINATE YOU WITH. BE FREE, FIND YOUR TRUE SELF; BE SPONTANEOUS; LAUGH. LAUGH UNTIL YOUR SIDES HURT AND SET THE CHILDREN FREE.

One big problem today is that many narcissists sit in places of power and their worst nightmare is to look within or for others to look within them. It is EMPTY inside of them and they are therefore focused on compensating the outside with extreme blingbling. These people will do anything to keep the power and are FULL of fears and inadequacies. Most people are afraid but their true selves are intact, although hidden. But these people ARE REALLY empty inside. There is nothing to fix. We can just stop more people from becoming like this (extreme childhood wounding) and also see through their manipulations. 

Unfortunately these people make it to the top FAR more often, as other’s stand no chance when they undermine, manipulate and control. They are ready to do ANYTHING for power, which ordinary people are not. These people are not Leaders, they are Self-Serving Predators (even if they can be quite smart and show a very “friendly” face when needed). When people act from their heart/from a loving place/higher self, these people get extremely triggered, because of their complexes and they will systematically try to suppress and sabotage these “bright” people. Only people who are more like them (power and control issues) or extreme codependents will be allowed to advance or have the spotlight.

These self-absorbed, old paradigm people can spot a “bright” person from miles away and will do anything to sabotage them. They have no chance. This is a vicious circle where the losers become winners in this society and the “real” people get pushed aside, hurt or are used. 

With the real people I don’t mean those who have pushed away their dark side, but integrated, balanced, full of good stuff people. Empathic. Real. Genuine. Trustworthy when it all comes down to it. 

Unfortunately a LARGE percentage of spiritual gurus are like this as well (and that’s why it’s better to always THINK FOR YOURSELF in the end). They like the power trip and want people to do as they say, not to find their own way. That is why I don’t beleive in people who create “programmes”, as everyone must find their own unique way. You can be a pathfinder or guide, but that’s it. Controlling people want followers and dependants and they do not want you to think for yourself. Because this means they cant control you! They want to control your feelings, wellbeing, actions, knowledge, yes everything. This is not FREEDOM.

TRUE LEADERS CAN BE HUMBLE AND OPEN: THEY LISTEN AND CAN BE PUPILS TOO.

I have come to realize that these predators are a larger problem than I’ve wanted to see (I always want to believe the best, but this can also prevent one from the truth…). This has led our planet to its current state, where nature, animals, children and our very earth consistently are maltreated. We have let these people rule us and their lack of empathy is apparent. It’s all about money, power and image. Even when it comes to charity, it can be a way to polish your image, rather than a heartfelt thing (and make no mistake – this intention imprints itself on the matrix). These imprints bring more and more disharmony to the original matrix. They can TALK all they want about peace, but what’s INSIDE? I once knew a man who was a strong advocate for women’s rights and to be honest, he had enormous hidden hostility towards women, stemming from his childhood. So no matter his external actions, the vibration and frequencies he sent out were not beneficial or loving at all.  

It is important to look at own inner patterns but also to learn not to give power or to believe the lies. They will minimize, forget, silence, misplace, make invisible, sabotage, dampen, destroy, control everything that is full, as they are so empty. Sadly enough, this means that they ESPECIALLY want to crush the FULLEST people. I think we have lost many loving leaders like this (does Jesus ring a bell These people strangely meet with MURDEROUS rage and are often assasinated, while creeps such as Hitler always manage to survive better!!! 

I’ve just had it with this paradigm.

Don’t let them do it again people. They are just full of envy and rage for all the things you have and they can never have. Love, empathy, meaningfulness and connection. Dear friends, stand up and shine with all your might! BE GREAT, BE BRIGHT, GROW INTO THE SKY. And do not listen to these messages. They DID get your email, they DID find you interesting, you DID leave an impression. Even sometimes too much so. Don’t be small and fearful like them – OUTSHINE them even when they try to stop you. This is part of making the new paradigm shift and detach from these sorry predators with nothing but fear and control hunger in their hearts. Look for the leaders that inspire and that let others shine too!

You lovely souls, GOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! 

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Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Diagnostic Criteria

 A pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), need for admiration, and lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:

- has a grandiose sense of self-importance (e.g., exaggerates achievements and talents, expects to be recognized as superior without commensurate achievements)

- is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love

- believes that he or she is “special” and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions)

- requires excessive admiration

- has a sense of entitlement, i.e., unreasonable expectations of especially favorable treatment or automatic compliance with his or her expectations

- is interpersonally exploitative, i.e., takes advantage of others to achieve his or her own ends

- lacks empathy: is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others

- is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him or her

- shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes

I AM KRISTINA AND I NO LONGER BELEIVE THAT A WITHOLDING SERIOUS EXPRESSION IS A SIGN OF TRUE POWER!!

DARK MATTER IS NOT THE FILLER OF OTHERWISE EMPTY SPACE - IT IS THE SOURCE; THE EVERYTHING FROM WHICH THE REST SPRINGS: IT IS THE 0, THAT COMES FIRST. Picture ABOVE taken by French scientists that show the vast matrix of interconnected dark matter. This determines that the galaxies appear to be elongated in a coherent manner over large regions of the sky. The measured effect is small , but the accuracy of the results leaves no doubt that the signal is due to the gravitational lensing effect of the dark matter distribution.

Dark Matter is Compact (yes although it may seem strange), Single Point (encompassing everything’s seed), Looping closed, Bouncing Off, Surrounding 0 of Infinity and No Choice Made. It is pre and post-material, the one half of universe. It is a misunderstanding that it is more than 50% - it is not, but its distribution and appearance is different. Don’t know exactly, but there is (or should be) PERFECT balance. And you cannot say that it fills up “otherwise empty space”.

It is the foundation, the originator. Not extramaterial. It is the core, the center, the matrix/mother, the all. This is the non-angular world. This is the Everything with all solutions inside, resting yet full and complete. It reacts with light somehow and helps it. Optically dark but in essence light. Dark matter curves the light so it is not the straight path of 1 in infinite space.  Finite (1) and infinite (0) merges and light travels as a snake moves in soft curves, forward and into.

For everything there is a creative in-between. When the two opposites meet, they create a third synthesis. What does dark matter meet with? What is the opposite of matrix/mother?

Strings with loose ends and with closed loops. Merging solution of these two in aether?

And why does dark energy expand the universe through negative pressure? Gravitational repulsion. Pulling causes repulsion. Another flipflopping. The positive energy is trying to expand the universe, the negative energy is pulling it back in, and vice versa. What is then the optimal state. What does perfect balance create? An eternal creative moment? Does breathing cease then? 

“The flame is the source of all things,
containing all things in potentiality.”
THOTH

Why is the Flame the Source (0)? What does cold Dark Matter hide in essence? Bose-Einstein Condensate shows cold is One superatom and heat individuated motion and matter. What is the flipflopping we miss? Does cold carry the flame?

“Know ye, that in all formed matter,
the heart of Light always exists.
Aye, even though bound in the darkness,
inherent Light always exists.”
THOTH 

Again, what we see is flipflopped. If something seems less dense, it may in essence be very compact. If it seems interconnected, it may simultaneously be closed. If it encompasses everything, it may be of single focus… For example, a vacuum may be the fullest thing that exists. Empty of matter but FILLED WITH THE ALL. Matter is not what matters!

Something extremely dense can absorb everything.


SIMULATED BLACK HOLE. ARE BLACK HOLES OUR WORST NIGHTMARE OR OUR BEST FRIEND? DOES IT DESTROY OR CREATE? OR BOTH? The outer eye is one thing and the inner eye another. Supernovas ETC are THE INNER part and black holes THE OUTER. THE PUPIL ABSORBS THE LIGHT, BUT OF COURSE IS NOT LOST. I ALSO SUSPECT THE PUPIL EMITS SOME KIND OF LIGHT TOO FROM WITHIN, AS EVERYTHING IS CYCLICAL. WITHIN, WITHOUT, WITHIN…

Black holes are manifest travelling into the core, inward, spinning fast until all matter is dissolved and then another form is created. They create motion and are at the center of things through their stillness. They do not devour, they free and transcend. They are the birth canal. To escape this hole and live on eternally you must produce an effort that is infinite. You must become as dense as a black hole and you can through inner alchemical processes. All that Matters is Within. No Magic, All Science of Higher Laws. It is not impossible, only unknown at the moment. If science cannot explain, does not mean it cannot be done. Ignorance is not Law. If you cannot embrace the unmanifest, dark matter will also be of no importance. Although it is the MOST important.

“The key to worlds within thee
are found only within.
For man is the gateway of mystery
and the key that is One with the One.”
THOTH

When all is collected into ONE point, does it then have no mass? Does it transcend mass?

Inner event horizon. Keep spinning faster and faster in vortex motion within, into. An inner black hole event is a river of light flowing towards a waterfall. No point of return when the force is stronger than everything else and then you need no sails at all. Over the edge in angle. Enlightenment.

Astrophysicists expect that almost all black holes will rotate, because the stars from which they are formed rotate. In fact most black holes are expected to spin very rapidly, because they retain most of the angular momentum of the stars from which they were formed, but concentrated into a much smaller radius. The same laws of angular momentum make skaters spin faster if they pull their arms closer to their bodies. We must rotate closer to the core, just as the muon do. More on muons next time – the emissaries from space. Angles and non angles is the solution. So very important.

“Long, long ago, I cast off my body.
Wandered I free
through the vastness of ether,
circled the angles
that hold man in bondage.
Know ye, O man, ye are only a spirit.
The body is nothing.
The Soul is ALL.”
THOTH

The shape of the Universe actually depends upon its density. If the density exceeds the “critical density”, then the Universe would indeed be shaped like a sphere (infinite). However, if the density is less than the critical density, the Universe is curved like a saddle (creative in-between). And, if the density of the Universe exactly equals the critical density, the Universe is flat like a sheet of paper (finite). Astronomers still do not know the exact density of the Universe, but the most widely accepted theory holds that the density is very close to critical density, so the Universe is probably closest to the flat model.  

The shape of the universe depends on its density. If the density is less than the critical density, the Universe is curved like a saddle. This would be the chalice and the apis – where flat and sphere meet in synthesis. This is the balance and synthesis between infinite and finite. What is this a symbol for?

ALL THINGS OSCILLATE BUT ARE ONE AND THE SAME. Perhaps the ideal is when OSCILLATION stops and we fuse the opposites. Then eternal creation remains. Then we exist in the ALL simultaneously.

Time is timeless but we give the movement and move through it. Time is a divider so that we are not engulfed in the All.

“Time is not in motion,
but ye move through time
as your consciousness
moves from one event to another.” 

“Aye, by time yet exist, all in all,
an eternal ONE existence.
Know ye that even though in the time ye are separate,
yet still are ONE, in all times existent.”

“Found I that time moves through strange angles.
Yet only by curves could I hope to attain the key
that would give me access to the time-space.
Found I that only by moving upward
and yet again by moving to right-ward
could I be free from the time of the movement.”
THOTH

M-theory is on to something great. M as in Water, Creative-Inbetween, Synthesis, Muons, the Sacred Mu. Matrix. Mother. M should look as in Apis Horn (Bull), not only angles as in M. Apis is Chalice as well, not only Phallic A. And when the two should merge completely, we get a Circle instead (infinity).

THE ORIGINAL M COMBINES ANGLES AND NON ANGLES. LOOKS LIKE A SADDLE OR CHALICE? 

BELOW, THE 0 IS FORMED WHEN THE OPPOSITE CURVED HORNS MEET. LIKE A VESICA PISCES OR BIRTHCANAL.  

 

“Unlike more conventional views of creation in modern physics, that are “out of nothing”, the M-Theory vision, although not yet complete, is of the whole observable universe being one of many extended 4 dimensional branes in an 11 dimensional spacetime. Although branes similar to that representing our universe can co-exist in the theory, their physical laws could differ from our own, as could their number of dimensions. Some proponents of the theory now believe that a collision of two branes may have been responsible for the Creation”. “Banks, Fischler, Shenker and Susskind (BFSS) demonstrated that a theory of 9 very large matrices, evolving in time, could reproduce the Supergravity description at low energy, but take over for it as it breaks down at high energy. While the Supergravity description assumes a continuous space-time, Matrix theory predicts that, at short distances, noncommutative geometry takes over, somewhat similar to the way the continuum of water breaks down at short distances in favour of the graininess of molecules.” (Wikipedia).

“Nine are the interlocked dimensions,
and Nine are the cycles of space.
Nine are the diffusions of consciousness,
and Nine are the worlds within worlds.
Aye, Nine are the Lords of the cycles
that come from above and below.”
THOTH 

THOTH - MYTHIC FIGURE OR SCIENTIFIC BESSERWISSER AND BLUEPRINT KEEPER? 

THE MAORI GREETING HONGI: WHEN OPPOSITES MEET IN THE UNIFYING THIRD EYE A RHOMB IS CREATED IN-BETWEEN AND WE EXCHANGE BREATH (BECOME ONE). THE NOSE IS THE PHALLIC 1 AND STANDS FOR WILL AND CREATIVITY. THE RHOMB HOLDS BOTH SQUARE AND TRIANGLE; BOTH ABOVE AND BELOW. 

Lately, the Maori culture and New Zealand has been much on my mind. I have always had a strong connection, I think I may have had quite many incarnations there! Could even consider living there – so if you have any interesting projects there that need a symbol expert/art interpreter, contact me! My higher self draws me closer and closer to this area. 

The Tiki below is one of their sacred symbols and from what I have been able to gather, not much is known about its exact symbolism.  Tiki seems to be the creator or first creation, the ideal, higher “man”. Let’s see what we can find when we look closer:

 

The legs and torso seem to form zero (remember Johannes spontaneous manga drawing?) This seems to symbolize the higher human being. The legs stand for duality and manifesting/walking in struggle. Our legs symbolize creating with primarily action/matter. The new paradigm manifests from the unmanifest 0 (thoughts, feelings, knowledge, enlightenment). The inner self radiates outwards and creates. Also, when we sit like Buddha, we become pyramidal in shape.

I have seen tikis with both a left and right tilt of the head – but my intuitive feeling is that the left tilt is the “original” one? That would symbolize turning your head towards the feminine. Notice also that the entire lower body forms a leminiscate!  The mouth pronounces the Logos/vibrates with love (heart –shaped mouth) and as duality is separated (lips) the 1 (tongue) protudes from the 0 of the inside of the mouth. Divine Will to Manifest springs from the Unmanifest 0, as a Result of Heart. This is the essence of the New Paradigm & The Original Blueprint, as I’ve stated so many times before. Higher Will Through The Heart (Not Action Via the Ego, as the Old Paradigm has taught us). 

THE TONGUE (1) & THE MOUTH (0) = PHI.

I beleive the extension of the tongue as well as the Haka is more a creative act in its original expression, than an act of war. It is the phallic King of Wands, preparing to create life. To devour his enemy is more symbolic of internalizing the shadow side and becoming a person in synthesis. Later on I will also discuss the haka and how its breath of fire indicates the same thing! The True Archetypal Masculine is Courageous and Brave and Will Defend if Necessary, but he is primarily a Creator not a Killer! He symbolizes the emitting creative force with firm will based on the higher! 

The wide-open eyes allow the “all seeing eye” to be revealed completely and they form two sun signs (circle with dot in middle), which represents seeing the truth. They also become zeros and draw in maximal light, with no eyelids hindering. 

I also tried turning the Tiki upside down (like the Hanged Man): The torso now looks like a face. The eyes are half closed, the mouth “cleft” and the nose is deformed and too big, looks almost like a fist and hinders the tongue’s protusion (erection so to speak). This to me looks like the old paradigm and our lower selves. There does not seem to be much space for the brain or crown either

 

The head looks square, whereas the “other” head looks round! Also in its upright position (pic below), the torso has a face of its own, a Laughing, Content Buddha of sorts (9 of cups kind of guy)!

The Haka dance seems to express another facet of this principle – the True Creator. Take a look:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kd0kDxP04eI 

HA means breath.
KA means to ignite, to energise.
Breath of Fire.

Henare Teowai of Ngati Porou, an acknowledged master of the art of haka was asked on his death-bed, “What is the art of performing haka?”.

He replied: “Kia korero te katoa o te tinana.” (The whole body should speak).

Another definition was given by Alan Armstrong in his book “Maori Games and Haka” (Reed, 1964):“The haka is a composition played by many instruments. Hands, feet, legs, body, voice, tongue, and eyes all play their part in blending together to convey in their fullness the challenge, welcome, exultation, defiance or contempt of the words.”

“It is disciplined, yet emotional… It is at it’s best, truly, a message of the soul expressed by words and posture..”

If you ask me, the Haka expresses the last stage of becoming enlightened, where all energy systems and different frequencies are in tune and express oneness and creativity. Both in the unmanifest (words) and manifest (actions). Then the Phoenix is reborn and we “breath fire” (ignition). This is how the Original Blueprint is restored and how Creation is supposed to come about! The New Seeds Are Sown!

A upa … ne! ka upa … ne!	One upward step! Another upward step!
A upane kaupane whiti te ra!	An upward step, another.. the Sun shines !!!
Hi !!!

THIS IS ON A FUNNY NOTE – BUT DOES NOT THE NORTHERN PART OF NEW ZEALAND LOOK LIKE A FACE WITH OPEN EYES AND MOUTH, BUT WHO HAS LOST ITS TONGUE (TO THE SOUTHERN PART!)!!