Victory! Finally!

(here’s also to my unborn niece Nike -
becoming the eternally victorious, returning one!)
WELCOME!
(this is my last blog post, time for sal-ary)
Add comment June 2, 2009
The Consecrated Delphys of the Fish People

We love Dolphins so much because they represent the original state, when we live in Mu, after receiving the sacred spark and finishing the “staircase” process. Playful, happy, at ease, flowing… They are our true selves and Dolphin = Delphys = Womb = Enclosed Area of Eden. This is the protected Goddess jurisdiction, sanctified by the seed/anointment or spark of the God. Living on the True Earth = Nurtured in the safe Goddess belly (swimming in the Grail of Living Waters) with a spark of God burning in us (well actually they are One – just different parts of the “body”). Noli Me Tangere = Noone Can Touch Me Now
Of course all of this happens in an energetical way – you don’t develop scales (its the energy depicted as haloes – an umbilical sac of sorts) and you certainly don’t live under physical water! The baptism and anointing oil is a symbol of this. I’m sure scientists could explain it all in a very quantum way (just as with Bose-Einstein, resulting in a new form of matter)
And the fantastic thing is that only those who have been “purified” and balanced can reach this state, which means that if your heart is not OK, you can’t reach this energy. Talk about turning the tables! I’m sure control freaks and unhealthy people did everything to obliterate the knowledge of this process! They could only stay in power in the way of fear, control et c! This way, you only have true power when you are OK inside. How cool and absolutely just is not that? That means Love rules.
PS: becoming purified/balanced means incorporating all traits in a healthy way – anger, jealousy, sexuality etc. The portrayal of “fish-people” (such as Jesus or Mary) as some kind of unnatural & only the goodie-goodie sides showing in a holier than thou manner” is not correct. When you become whole, you use all traits/facets/feelings, but in a constructive & balanced manner. But of course, making sure that people beleived that you actually physically die during this mega-strenious, long staircase process (rebirth to your higher self) and that you become some kind of wishy-washy codependent without a physical body, sure put a stop to others attempting it! Or my personal favorite: ceasing to exist (Nirvana) as a prize or the ceasing of all emotion. All those who want this, raise a hand? No? Of course not, beingness is the hub of all creation (ever heard the expression “I am What I Am”!) Earth is the Prize and Eden, when you do it the right, fishy way… The (inner) way that has been depicted and camouflaged by myths, symbols, rituals and religions since the dawn of mankind….
Becoming Quintessential & Whole:
“If you direct your heart onto one point,
nothing will be impossible.”
Buddha


Add comment May 26, 2009
The Fool’s Leap of Faith from the Tower

Light of Issa (purified heart)/Leap of Fool leaves Father/Mars/Ra
When you have walked the 7 steps up and cleansed yourself, the top comes off (the pyramid is truncated) & the House of God/Tower/Phallus/One ejects (lightning strikes) and duality (multitude) is created, falling to Water/Earth/Goddess/Life.

The Masonic fez – another symbol of the truncation
and light/energy/seed coming out.
Add comment May 24, 2009
Anakim – The Free, Tall Ones of Old

Those called Anakim/Nephilim/Tall/Stretched/”Giants”
Were Original Humans/Free People Connected to Source/Extending Upwards and Collecting Juice & then Gone to Mother/Cave/Enclosure/Mandorla
Midrash indicates that the Anakins wore “neck-chains heaped upon neck-chains” (as if from the verb to press or force), and that they seized the solar disk and cried “send us rain” or that “they squeezed their heads into the sun”.
Some tribes or people have a stronger recollection of ” the original way” and therefore seem very focused on freedom and carrying on their cultural heritage. They are often distinguished by a stronger cultural respect for women and a sense of “separation”. Tuaregs and Basque people are two of these people that seem to subconciously recollect being Free/Tall people. I think the Romani also belong to this group (which is often characterized by wandering or nomadism).
Unfortunately, what remains today, are only externalized symbols of what should be an internal process (see original sufis and essenes, for example). It is very dangerous when one starts to externalize what should be done within/or organically. For example, the burning of wives in India, is really a symbol for a part of the internal/organic process, as is circumcision and the veiling of woman. But it was NEVER meant to be expressed like that – EXTERNALLY and in ”terminal”, non-organic ways. The keywords are NATURAL, ORIGINAL & WITHIN, good folks of all nations, religions and tribes. It is good to have symbols for remembering (as long as you know what they originally meant, which most don’t anymore) - but keep them “abstract” and also, it is better to walk the talk instead of getting lost in millions of external rituals & gadgets. And no, the Anakim where not GIANTS in length (externalizing again) but where called so for an internal reason.
And even if you are not “spiritual”/beleive in the sacred: When you eat a cake at birthday, it is a symbol for the mound/heap of going one year round. When you open up the new year’s champagne, it means that the cap is off and the seed comes out (and intoxication). When you dance around the maypole, you participate in the symbolic act of creation. This external stuff (symbols) are just clues so that you will REMEMBER…
(PS: Of course, this original “Anakim” process is not done with the physical body, but with the subtle body. I’m sure science will explain it too one day, if they can only stop obsessing so much about matter. Consciousness also has its own laws, including altering states - you can compare it to for example superconductivity, superfluidity etc. But if you beleive only in the science of matter, you can go nite-nite directly, nothing for you here!!!)

Add comment May 23, 2009
The Return of The Perceptor Persephone

Persephone the Perceptor & Pupil of Père,
Cuts Him into Parses (pieces) by Her
Whirling & Loud Wailing Phoné
& Mirrors a Smaller Replica Pupus (doll)
in the Core/Kore or Center of the Eye.
etymology of pupil:
“student,” 1382, originally “orphan child, ward,” from O.Fr. pupille (14c.), from L. pupillus (fem. pupilla) “orphan, ward, minor,” dim. of pupus “boy” (fem. pupa “girl”), probably related to puer “child,” probably from PIE *pup-, from base *pu- “to swell, inflate.” Meaning “disciple, student” first recorded 1563.
“center of the eye,” 1670 (in L. form from 1398), from O.Fr. pupille (14c.), from L. pupilla, originally “little girl-doll,” dim. of pupa “girl, doll” (see pupil (1)), so called from the tiny image one sees of himself reflected in the eye of another. Gk. is said also to have used the same word, kore (lit. “girl”), to mean both “doll” and “pupil of the eye;” and cf. obsolete baby “small image of oneself in another’s pupil” (1593), source of 17c. colloquial expression to look babies “stare lovingly into another’s eyes.”

1 comment May 22, 2009
The Golden Fleece

Wooly Garment/Warp (of Epsilon) finishes
leaving Ares/Outermost/Udder.

Add comment May 21, 2009
From Isi to Isa
“Embarking (with Salt and Light of Father in Bowl)
on Mu Boat of Happiness & Grace”







Add comment May 20, 2009
Maruka* the Peacock of Transmutation

* maruka = peacock in sanskrit
“Peacock is Goddess with Eye of Ra/Seeds Enclosed/1 in
middle of 0 resulting in Many colors/Beauty”
At the time of Creation of the universe, when the primordial poison
was churned out and transmuted into the amrita (nectar), it was a
peacock that absorbed and transmuted the negative effects.
The Yazidis consider Tawûsê Melek (The Peacock Angel)
a benevolent angel who has been redeemed and become
a demiurge who created the cosmos from the Cosmic Egg.
After repentance and weeping for 7000 years,
the angel’s tears filled seven jars,
which then quenched the fires of “hell”.

Add comment May 19, 2009
The Seated Baboon of Thoth

Leaping from Alpha to Gate/Cat
(receiving divine cover or scales/hide/fleece)
is result of Innocent/Purified/Good
who has Crawled/Squatted/Sat down/Been bent
or Curved (total surrendering)
(Hana = Hebrew for both Grace and Being Bent)

Add comment May 18, 2009
Bhakti – The Virgo on the Verge of the Verga (Rod)

Fattening/ Ark makes heat/fury/hammer/cry of Alpha
(in adequate likeness) satiated/throw out of Tau/enough proof
of devoted woman (burning on pyre with him).


Add comment May 13, 2009
To Aisha (Eve, Chavah) – Beloved Life Giver
AISHA*
As if I don’t exist
She was passing by me
With no regard, the Queen of Sheba
I said, Aisha, take this, all of it is for you
Here, the pearls, the jewels,
also the gold around your neck
The fruits, well ripe with the taste of honey
And my life, Aisha if you love me!
I will go where your breath leads me,
In the countries of ivory and ebony
I will erase your tears, your sorrows
Nothing is too beautiful for a girl so beautiful
Aisha, Aisha listen to me
Aisha, Aisha don’t go
Aisha, Aisha look at me
Aisha, Aisha answer me
I would say the words, the poems
I would play the music of the sky
I would take the rays of the sun
to light up your dreamy eyes
Oh! Aisha, Aisha listen to me
Aisha, Aisha don’t go
She said: “Keep your treasures,
Me, I’m worth more than that.
Bars are still bars even if made of gold.
I want the same rights as you
and respect for each day,
Me. I want only love.”
I want you Aisha and I love you until death
You are master of my life and my love
You are my years and my life
I hope to live with you, only you…
(* Aisha or Aicha= Life or Alive in Arabic)

Add comment May 8, 2009
Sator – the Ancient Riddle of The Returning One

Satiated Sower Rains Gold/Crop into Storage/Vessel/Flat Cake (Alpha repose/decline) to hold/weave/string or stretch/Tanit*/tent, the work
& result of going full circle/wheel/revolve/return back.
* lunar goddess
Add comment May 7, 2009
Being Free Standing & Fixed* (Separated, Stretched) Is Pledge/Bond of Filling Emptied/Pure with Breath/Cry/Pouring of Lord’s Kiss/Hay/Cut off and go to House of C(halice)
* both 1 and 0, Alpha and Omega.

Add comment May 2, 2009
The Royal Vehicle of the Goddess – Riding the Beast
When she has mastered and subdued the Beast & is totally seated (like the ibis or baboon of Thoth) and her feet do not touch the ground, then the beast, donkey, tiger, lion, elephant, barge, carrier, platform or bier will carry the living goddess aspect (Durga, Kumari, Mary etc) where she needs to go…














Add comment April 30, 2009
The Sacred Spark Grasped by the Heroine
Readiness/rainbow made/suckling by Alpha/Debt made by connection/prayer or conversation/pause/measuring is garment of Alpha/four corners/grasping a handful/essence/baby/christ.


PS “Ghau” is said to be the base for the word God and Means Call or Gape (both in which you OPEN your mouth). Does not the GAPE/HOLLOW/MOUTH usually symbolize the Goddess principle?
Add comment April 25, 2009
Mary, Eve, Isis… the Heroine at Easter

HAPPY EASTER!!!!
“Mary” is the one who bears the burden and sacrifices so that there can be forgiveness and amendment (by transmuting the scorching fire and mixing opposites “in her bowl” so there can be peace and balance). She is the Rescuer and the Child (Christ/Mankind) is the Rescued one. She is the Gate that makes rebirth or resurrection possible.
“Eve’s Bridging & Baby is the Amendment/Mending of Fault/Lack” or “Blessed Isis of Heh’s (H) Adam/Acorn (the Alpha in the Den) is Justness/Innocence
PS: Gerald Massey writes that Guru means Pregnant in Sanskrit – and it is generally interpreted to mean “the heavy being”. I’d say with certainty that Guru then refers to a Woman, not so? Furthermore, Massey states: The Egyptian nam (namt) is the retreat, the womb, which will be shown to have been the first oracle and mouthpiece of revelation. With the permutation of the m into b, we have nabi, the prophet; naba (אבנ), to announce, manifest, prophesy.
Add comment April 9, 2009
Happy Vernal Equinox or Lady’s Day!
Descent Of The Goddess (Legend)
In ancient times, our Lord, the Horned One, was (as he still is) the Controller, the Comforter. But men know him as the dread Lord, lonely, stern, and just.
But our Lady the Goddess oft grieved deeply for the fate of her creations as they aged and died. She would solve all mysteries, even the mystery of death, and so journeyed to the underworld.
The Guardian of the Portals challenged her: ‘Strip off thy garments, lay aside thy jewels; for naught may you bring with you into this our land, for it is written that your True Self is the only fitting adornment for those in the realms of Death.’
So she laid down her garments and her jewels, and was bound, as all living must be who seek to enter the realms of Death, the Mighty One.
Such was her beauty that Death himself knelt, and laid his sword and crown at her feet, and kissed her feet, saying: ‘Blessed be thy feet that have brought thee in these ways. Abide with me; but let me place my hand on thy heart.’
And she replied: ‘Why do you cause all things that I love, and take delight in, to fade and die?’
‘Lady,’ replied Death, ‘it is age and fate. Age causes all things to wither; but when men die at the end of time, I give them rest and strength, so that they may return. But you, you are lovely. Return not, abide with me.’
And she replied, ‘Nay, I love thee not and I am needed in the world of the living.’
Again Death knelt, and kissed her knees, saying: ‘Blessed be thy knees that kneel before the Altar. Abide with me; let me place my hand on thy heart.’
And she replied, ‘Nay, I love thee not and I am needed in the world of the living.’
Death (still kneeling), kissed her on the womb, saying: ‘Blessed be thy organs of generation, without which none of us would be. Abide with me; let me place my hand on thy heart.’
And she replied, ‘Nay though I feel the beginnings of love for thee, I must return to those I fully love in the world of creation.’
Death then stood, and kissed her on the breast, saying: Blessed be thy breast, formed in strength and beauty. Abide with me; let me place my hand on thy heart.’
And she replied, ‘Nay though I feel love for thee, I must not abandon those I am responsible for, in the world of creation. I cannot do this thing, better you would return with me.’
‘Lady,’ replied Death, It cannot be so. If I were to leave my realm, and abandon those who seek cleansing and rest with me, then the Wheel would no longer turn. Age and weakness would overtake those whom you love, and they would have nowhere to find rest and reunion with those who have gone before. As age and debility overtook your creations, there would quickly be no room for the new, only the withered, the tired, and the stagnant.’ He then kissed her lips, saying: ‘Blessed be thy lips, which shall utter the Holy Names. Abide with me; let me place my hand on thy heart.’
And she replied, Let us BOTH lay our hands, each unto the heart of the other, thereby claiming and uniting each unto the other. In this way may I rule my kingdom of birth, creation, and life; yet share with you your kingdom of death, rejuvenation, and rest. United in Perfect Love and Perfect Trust, that the Universe may be whole and the Wheel turn smoothly.
Death replied, ‘This is indeed WISDOM, So Mote it Be!’ They embraced, thus pledging their eternal love.
And he taught her all his mysteries, and gave her the necklace which is the circle of rebirth. And she taught him her mystery of the sacred cup which is the cauldron of rebirth.
They loved, and were one; for there be three great mysteries in the life of mankind, and magic controls them all. To fulfill love, you must return again at the same time and at the same place as the loved ones; and you must meet, and know, and remember, and love them again.
But to be reborn, you must die, and be made ready for a new body. And to die, you must be born; and without love, you may not be born.
And our Goddess is ever inclined to love, and mirth, and happiness; and guards and cherishes her hidden children in life, and in death she teaches the way to her communion; and even in this world she teaches them the mystery of the Magic Circle, which is placed between the worlds of men and of the Gods.
And thus we are taught of the beginnings of the wheel of the year wherein the Lord and the Lady share their rulership of the year, each offering and sharing a balance to the other, and the basis of that sharing.

the JOURNEY TO the “Land of the Dead”, was originally accomplished, not by a solar male Deity, but by a lunar female Deity. It is Nature herself who, in spring, returns from DEATH/OTHER SIDE with her gift of abundant life. Solar heroes may have laid claim to this theme much later. The very fact that we are dealing with a three-day period of absence should tell us we are dealing with a lunar, not solar, theme.
PS: I THINK DEATH IS EQUAL TO HEAVEN/ABOVE AND THE SOLAR/FIRE GOD (DARKNESS IS THE SOIL/EARTH OR INCUBATION CHAMBER/GATE/PASSOVER AND THE WOMB = GODDESS). AND DON’T FORGET THAT SYMBOLICALLY, “MANKIND” AND NATURE (THE CHRIST/CHILD ARCHETYPE) IS THE BALANCE OF THESE TWO PRINCIPLES. WE ARE BOTH SPIRIT (GOD) AND BODY (GODDESS).
Gerald Massey Quote: “The Greek magos (magician) was a form of maka or menka, the Irish macha, as a title of Artemis, who was imaged in the great temple at Ephesus as the many-breasted wet-nurse. The month of May was likewise dedicated to Magos at Ephesus, and the name of May is a form of Maka (Menka-t), the Hindu Maya and Greek Maia.”
Add comment March 20, 2009
Look To The Widgets For New Info
Just wanted to alert readers that while this blog has been dormant for quite a while, I have updated the widgets (side bar) every now and then. So if you want the most recent tidbits of information, look there. Many of the older articles already feel a bit “outdated” to me, as I have progressed so much in the last year’s or so intensified journey and exploration.

GUESS WHAT THE TRUE SYMBOLISM IS OF THE “COVERED WOMAN” (F EX IN ISLAM). IT MEANS THE MASCULINE UNMANIFEST/SACRED SPARK OR KA BEING COVERED BY FLESH IN THE FEMININE WOMB BY GOING FULL CIRCLE. THE FEMININE ENCAPSULATES THE SOUL AND MAKES IT VISIBLE IN THE FORM OF BALANCED CREATION AND THE CHILD! ARCHETYPICALLY, I AM AT THE “LAST” PHASE OF THE MONOMYTH/JOURNEY/KUNDALINI, WHERE I SYMBOLICALLY GET TO SEE AND EXPERIENCE THE BABY’S REBIRTH/NEW CREATION/THE ENSOULED, ABUNDANT VISIBLE RESULT!
PS; The hero/heroine’s journey (as Joseph Campbell would call it) is an archetypal journey, that can be made by everyone. That is why Buddha/Christ/the Egyptian Karast/Krishna etc etc are symbolic, representing an archetypal image/child (result of two opposites merging) and the outcome of enlightenment/balance. But this does NOT mean, that the archetypal drama does not occur in the individual’s life. It has been my experience, that embarking on this Journey, there are things that will Happen in your life, that will follow the steps of this journey (which also is symbolic of creation). In many cultures, these steps have been made into initiation rites and rituals, to preserve the process through the ages. The best source to this process, according to me, are the Ancient Egyptians. They seem to have had full access to this “original blueprint” & its laws, for one reason or another.

LOOK AT THIS SPONTANEOUS PHOTO OF MY COOL NEPHEW JOHANNES. LOOKED AT IT AGAIN THE OTHER DAY AND SAW HOW HIS HEAD/TOP IS THE PUPIL IN THE ALL-SEEING EYE (WHERE BLACK AND WHITE MEET) AND CASCADING DOWN COMES COLOR.

AND WHILE I’M AT IT – HERE’S ANOTHER PIC IN THE SAME BATCH. I ARRANGED THE CRAYFISH (TWO YEARS AGO) AND WHEN I LOOKED AT THE PIC NOW I REALIZED IT WAS AN EYE… DO YOU THINK THE UNIVERSE WAS TELLING ME SOMETHING?!

THE MEAGER MUGGER MAGUS SITS WHERE THE NARROW NOSE IS – SYMBOLICALLY IN THE CORNHOUSE (ON THE INSIDE OF THE PHALLIC PRINCIPLE).
Add comment March 14, 2009
A Fruitful Christmas & Bundles of Joy!

“Capetru Pader Manu Antu”
Ka of Father Deer/Head/Knowing Truth Coming into Enclosure/Garment of Rock/Stone Creates Original Human Coming From Ancestress and Progenitor Antu (Antu=Anat, Goddess of Fertility), Producer of Two.
Add comment December 11, 2008
The Fool Is Moving On To The Next Higher Level!
LOOK AT THE SHADOW OF THIS SPONTANEOUS PIC - CAN YOU SEE THE VICTORIOUS SIX OF WANDS?
THIS IS MY LAST BLOG POST FOR NOW – TIME TO ENTER GRAND MOTHER ZERO… AND BEGIN ALL ANEW…
Add comment March 12, 2008
Why Do We Let Narcissists Rule Our World?

THIS IS WHAT MATTERS – NOT WHAT THE OLD PARADIGM NARCISSISTS INDOCTRINATE YOU WITH. BE FREE, FIND YOUR TRUE SELF; BE SPONTANEOUS; LAUGH. LAUGH UNTIL YOUR SIDES HURT AND SET THE CHILDREN FREE.
One big problem today is that many narcissists sit in places of power and their worst nightmare is to look within or for others to look within them. It is EMPTY inside of them and they are therefore focused on compensating the outside with extreme blingbling. These people will do anything to keep the power and are FULL of fears and inadequacies. Most people are afraid but their true selves are intact, although hidden. But these people ARE REALLY empty inside. There is nothing to fix. We can just stop more people from becoming like this (extreme childhood wounding) and also see through their manipulations.
Unfortunately these people make it to the top FAR more often, as other’s stand no chance when they undermine, manipulate and control. They are ready to do ANYTHING for power, which ordinary people are not. These people are not Leaders, they are Self-Serving Predators (even if they can be quite smart and show a very “friendly” face when needed). When people act from their heart/from a loving place/higher self, these people get extremely triggered, because of their complexes and they will systematically try to suppress and sabotage these “bright” people. Only people who are more like them (power and control issues) or extreme codependents will be allowed to advance or have the spotlight.
These self-absorbed, old paradigm people can spot a “bright” person from miles away and will do anything to sabotage them. They have no chance. This is a vicious circle where in many instances the losers become winners in this society and the “real” people get pushed aside, hurt or are used.
With the real people I don’t mean those who have pushed away their dark side, but integrated, balanced, full of good stuff people. Empathic. Real. Genuine. I’ve met many people who call themselves “lightworkers”, but who are really people who simply are projecting out or denying their “darker side”. They see themselves as “white” entirely. Real Light always comes from transmuting your shadow side and getting back ALL parts of yourself. A big part of my own healing journey was incorporating healthy narcissistic traits that I had renounced due to childhood wounding.
Unfortunately a LARGE percentage of spiritual gurus are narcissistic as well (and that’s why it’s better to always THINK FOR YOURSELF in the end). They like the power trip and want people to do as they say, not to find their own way. That is why I don’t beleive in people who create “programmes”, as everyone must find their own unique way. You can be a pathfinder or guide, but that’s it. Controlling people want followers and dependants and they do not want you to think for yourself. Because this means they cant control you! They want to control your feelings, wellbeing, actions, knowledge, yes everything. This is not FREEDOM.

TRUE LEADERS CAN BE HUMBLE AND OPEN: THEY LISTEN AND CAN BE PUPILS TOO.
I have come to realize that these predators are a larger problem than I’ve wanted to see (I always want to believe the best, but this can also prevent one from the truth…). This has led our planet to its current state, where nature, animals, children and our very earth consistently are maltreated. We have let these people rule us and their lack of empathy is apparent. It’s all about money, power and image. Even when it comes to charity (and trust me, they love to get involved in charity – it provides them with massive amounts of adulation and a feeling of superiority), it can be a way to polish your image, rather than a heartfelt thing (and make no mistake – this intention imprints itself on the matrix). These imprints bring more and more disharmony to the original matrix. They can TALK all they want about peace, but what’s INSIDE? I once knew a man who was a strong advocate for women’s rights and to be honest, he had enormous hostility towards women, stemming from his childhood. It is important to understand that some people do things out of fullness/love and a true passion, but others as a means of camoflaging who theý really are. I have met many narcissistic people who are involved in “righteous” things for all the wrong reasons and who use their occupations as a means of projecting away their true faces.
It is important to look at own inner patterns but also to learn not to give power or to believe the lies. They will minimize, forget, silence, misplace, make invisible, sabotage, dampen, destroy, control everything that is full, as they are so empty. Sadly enough, this means that they ESPECIALLY want to crush the FULLEST people/leaders. These people strangely meet with MURDEROUS rage, while psychopaths such as Hitler often manage to survive better!
Dear friends, stand up and shine with all your might! BE GREAT, BE BRIGHT, GROW INTO THE SKY. And do not listen to these messages. Don’t be small and fearful like them – OUTSHINE them even when they try to sabotage you (and they will do that, as they absolutely loathe people who are real & everything they are not – they react to honorable people like a vampire does to garlic and crucifixes). This is part of making the new paradigm shift and detach from these sorry predators with nothing but fear and control hunger in their hearts. Look for the leaders & role models that inspire and that let others shine too!

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Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Diagnostic Criteria
A pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), need for admiration, and lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:
- has a grandiose sense of self-importance (e.g., exaggerates achievements and talents, expects to be recognized as superior without commensurate achievements)
- is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love
- believes that he or she is “special” and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions)
- requires excessive admiration
- has a sense of entitlement, i.e., unreasonable expectations of especially favorable treatment or automatic compliance with his or her expectations
- is interpersonally exploitative, i.e., takes advantage of others to achieve his or her own ends
- lacks empathy: is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others
- is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him or her
- shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes

NARCISSISTS USE ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING THAT CAN SUPPLY THEM WITH NARCISSISTIC SUPPLY AND ATTENTION – THEIR BODIES, SCANDALS, CHARITY, SPIRITUALITY, SEX, RELATIONSHIPS, CHILDREN, POLITICS, DOCU SOAPS, TALENT SHOWS AND ON AND ON. THEY ARE ALWAYS ON THE PROW TO GET THEIR “DRUG” (MIRRORING) AND ITS ALL ABOUT CREATING ATTENTION & A FALSE, IDEALIZED REFLECTION OF YOURSELF, SCRATCHING BENEATH THE SURFACE OF THESE OPPORTUNISTS ONE OFTEN FINDS MANY INCONSISTENCIES AND LIES. THEY MAY IN ONE BREATH CLAIM TO BE PACIFISTS, ONLY TO STAR IN HYPERVIOLENT MOVIES THE NEXT BREATH. IF YOU LOOK AT THEIR PASTS, YOU WILL OFTEN FIND A LONG HISTORY OF ATTENTION-SEEKING* BEHAVIORS IN A WIDE RANGE OF VARYING CONTEXTS, AND THEY LOVE TO CHANGE THEIR LOOKS/ROLES DRASTICALLY OVER TIME (NO INTACT SENSE OF SELF). THEY ARE ALSO NOTORIOUS COPY CATS – ALTHOUGH THEY OFTEN GET AWAY WITH THEIR STEALING & PLAGIARIZING (REMEMBER, THEY HAVE SPENT ALL THEIR LIVES PERFECTING THEIR TACTICS).
* Some narcissists can be Covert though, displaying a less attention-seeking face: Covert Narcissists
Add comment March 5, 2008
The Maori Creative Maker & Edenic Masculine

THE MAORI GREETING HONGI: WHEN OPPOSITES MEET IN THE UNIFYING THIRD EYE A RHOMB IS CREATED IN-BETWEEN AND WE EXCHANGE BREATH (BECOME ONE).
Lately, the Maori culture and New Zealand has been much on my mind. I have always had a strong connection, I think I may have had quite many incarnations there! My higher self draws me closer and closer to this kind of culture (Hawaii as well
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The Tiki below is one of their sacred symbols and from what I have been able to gather, not much is known about its exact symbolism. Tiki seems to be the creator or first creation, the ideal, higher “man”. Let’s see what we can find when we look closer:
The legs and torso seem to form zero (remember Johannes spontaneous manga drawing?) This seems to symbolize the higher human being. The legs stand for duality and manifesting/walking in struggle. Our legs symbolize creating with primarily action/matter. The new paradigm manifests from the unmanifest 0 (thoughts, feelings, knowledge, enlightenment). The inner self radiates outwards and creates. Also, when we sit like Buddha, we become pyramidal in shape.
I have seen tikis with both a left and right tilt of the head – but my intuitive feeling is that the left tilt is the “original” one? That would symbolize turning your head towards the feminine. Notice also that the entire lower body forms a leminiscate! The mouth pronounces the Logos/vibrates with love (heart –shaped mouth) and as duality is separated (lips) the 1 (tongue) protudes from the 0 of the inside of the mouth. Divine Will to Manifest springs from the Unmanifest 0, as a Result of Heart. This is the essence of the New Paradigm & The Original Blueprint, as I’ve stated so many times before. Higher Will Through The Heart (Not Action Via the Ego, as the Old Paradigm has taught us).

THE TONGUE (1) & THE MOUTH (0) = PHI.
I beleive the extension of the tongue as well as the Haka is more a creative act in its original expression, than an act of war. It is the phallic King of Wands, preparing to create life. To devour his enemy is more symbolic of internalizing the shadow side and becoming a person in synthesis. Later on I will also discuss the haka and how its breath of fire indicates the same thing! The True Archetypal Masculine is Courageous and Brave and Will Defend if Necessary, but he is primarily a Creator not a Killer! He symbolizes the emitting creative force with firm fiery will based on the higher!
The wide-open eyes allow the “all seeing eye” to be revealed completely and they form two sun signs (circle with dot in middle), which represents seeing the truth. They also become zeros and draw in maximal light, with no eyelids hindering.
I also tried turning the Tiki upside down (like the Hanged Man): The torso now looks like a face. The eyes are half closed, the mouth “cleft” and the nose is deformed and too big (too much will blocking), looks almost like a fist and hinders the tongue’s protusion (erection so to speak). This to me looks like the old paradigm and our lower selves. There does not seem to be much space for the brain or crown either
The head looks square, whereas the “other” head looks round! Also in its upright position (pic below), the torso has a face of its own, a Laughing, Content Buddha of sorts (9 of cups kind of guy)!
The Haka dance seems to express another facet of this principle – the True Creator. Take a look:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kd0kDxP04eI
HA means breath.
KA means to ignite, to energise.
Breath of Fire.
Henare Teowai of Ngati Porou, an acknowledged master of the art of haka was asked on his death-bed, “What is the art of performing haka?”.
He replied: “Kia korero te katoa o te tinana.” (The whole body should speak).
Another definition was given by Alan Armstrong in his book “Maori Games and Haka” (Reed, 1964):“The haka is a composition played by many instruments. Hands, feet, legs, body, voice, tongue, and eyes all play their part in blending together to convey in their fullness the challenge, welcome, exultation, defiance or contempt of the words.”
“It is disciplined, yet emotional… It is at it’s best, truly, a message of the soul expressed by words and posture..”
If you ask me, the Haka expresses the last stage of becoming enlightened, where all energy systems and different frequencies are in tune and express oneness and creativity. Both in the unmanifest (words) and manifest (actions). Then the Phoenix is reborn and we “breath fire” (ignition). This is how the Original Blueprint is restored and how Creation is supposed to come about! The New Seeds Are Sown!
| A upa … ne! ka upa … ne! | One upward step! Another upward step! |
| A upane kaupane whiti te ra! | An upward step, another.. the Sun shines !!! |
| Hi !!! |

THIS IS ON A FUNNY NOTE – BUT DOES NOT THE NORTHERN PART OF NEW ZEALAND LOOK LIKE A FACE WITH OPEN EYES AND MOUTH, BUT WHO HAS LOST ITS TONGUE (TO THE SOUTHERN PART! OF COURSE THE PHALLUS MUST BE TRUNCATED (DECAPITATED), FOR THE LIGHT/SEEDS TO COME FORTH…
1 comment February 23, 2008
Squaring the Circle – Original Blueprint Manifestation!

AT THE EQUINOXES (BALANCE) THE FEATHERED SERPENT (HIGHER PHALLIC PRINCIPLE?) DESCENDS FROM THE SKY (UNMANIFEST) AND MANIFESTS ITSELF IN ANGLES BELOW. IT DOES NOT RISE, BUT DESCEND THE STAIRS FROM THE SQUARE ON TOP (WHEN THE TOP HAS COME OFF?). AS ABOVE (IN HEAD AND SPIRIT), SO BELOW IN THE PHYSICAL WORLD. THE UNMANIFEST BRINGS FORTH THE MANIFEST. WHEN ALL IS IN BALANCE, THE LIGTHNING PATH DESCENDS AND THE DIVINE IS ONCE MORE PRESENT ON EARTH – IT HAS BEEN FERTLIZED BY THE HIGHER FIRE…
Since birth we have been taught that to physically manifest we have to pick a road both mentally and physically. We set a specific goal and then we make it happen. We limit our choices quickly. Often we make it happen with great struggle and sacrifice. Often what is manifested displays the unbalance within us or what we need to work with.
This is the old paradigm, where 1 is the preferred mode. This is only using our ego, the conscious, the limited. This is fragmentation (necessary by all means). You choose one and leave out the other… All emphasis is WITHOUT and IN ACTION. As you can understand, the manifesting result will be as unbalanced as the interior psyche of this paradigm.
The 0 part is left out – the inner, the all, the limitless possibilities, the incubation, the trust, the reflective part/gestation, the whole, the soul… The Abundance of Diversity…
BUT when we turn it around and work harder on inner issues and soul (already the Greeks said “Know Thyself”) we create a different matrix. This is squaring the circle. You realize that physical creation can emanate from the inner core/unmanifest/non-visible. That Malkuth (The physical creation) is only a RESULT of all the other sephirots (unmanifest ones).
By releasing and seeing your shadow sides, by healing your traumas, by seeing how your live your life with compensations, & by finding your true self beneath the projections, you become whole. You collect all the separate parts – feminine and masculine - and become one (this includes merging your finite and infinite higher self). This is being fully individuated, and this means both being unique and seeing ALL PARTS (oneness). You no longer split off parts!
That is why enlightenment in no way means ceasing to exist (BIG misunderstanding) – it means BEGINNING TO LIVE TRULY. All corners within are en-lightened (this includes seeing that you can be jealous, hateful, petty, and egoistic too). This sparks an enlightened physical manifestation, I beleive. A Balanced Matrix, if you will.

“BIG BANG”; FROM ONENESS TO SEPARATE PARTS. FROM OUTBREATH (1) TO INBREATH (0). WILL WE ONCE MORE BECOME ONE WHEN WE HAVE INDIVIDUATED FULLY? WILL THERE BE AN IMPLOSION (0) THEN = AN INWARD NON-ANGULAR MOTION FOLLOWING A SPIRALLING, WHIRLING PATH (VORTEX) TO THE CENTRE? IMPLOSION ALSO CREATES SUPERNOVAS…
Our code (thinking, feeling, acting) decides the Program/Matrix that willl be played and what the rules are. And not until we collect all parts of ourselves and become ONE can we also become the infinite human being, true cocreator and higher being…When all parts of humanity become whole and integrated.
Confusing and I must admit, I don’t get the whole meaning of this as of yet. If you do this inner work fully, I beleive manifestation will take place quite differently. I will give you an example that proves my point to the fullest! How is Life created (symbolically)? Two opposites merge and become one out of love. The 1 is enfolded in the 0 (within is without and vice versa). Once the seed is sown, the two people have no will over the resulting creation. The rest is up to “divine/higher” will. But of course the result will be for the highest and most loving best. And it will be birthed when it is ripe. You can nurture it, but you can’t control what it will be, right?

THE 1 RESTS WITH CONFIDENCE IN THE 0, KNOWING THAT WHEN THE TIME IS RIPE, BIRTH WILL OCCUR. AND BY THE WAY, WE ARE BORN UPSIDE DOWN BECAUSE THE HEAD (UNMANIFEST) COMES FIRST!
This is how physical manifestation works in the original blueprint. You merge all opposites and then become love/light/spark creatively. And then manifestation will occur in time – in abundance and without effort, for your best. Your ego will not rule, but your higher self and your heart. This is the way that needs trust and a complete turnaround J
This is realizing you are both immensely powerful, but also ready to relinquish control. And when you KNOW it will be a loving result, why worry?
This World was not meant to be A Struggle, these are Bugs in the Matrix! Today’s matrix is not effortless physical manifestation, and that’s how we’ve built it, code by code (possibly part of our individuation process). We forgot where we came from and that there is nothing to fear (we are eternal beings). Funnily enough, when you are complete (enlightened) but choose no specific path, you are all-inclusive = ONE. You can incorporate and hold everything. This is Eden and Original Blueprint.
This does not mean being passive, you do the inner work and follow your path and then trust the most loving manifestation will gravitate toward you. In the meantime, you choose no limitation at all. You just ARE and by your balance some kind of creative spark/white light manifests (somehow?). And I mean in a scientific way as well! Does not the foetus above look like a little lightbulb?
I agree, even to me it sounds incredible and it hasn’t been done in AAAAGES (did Jesus et al pull it off?). And yet, I am fully convinced this is the forthcoming era we are entering into. VERY good news, if we turn within and to our higher selves. Less good news if we continue as is. The choice is ours. I have made mine and I hope to be able to tell you what comes of this new way of manifesting…
Isn’t it funny that we human beings have always thought the answer is OUTSIDE us: the holy grail, squaring the circle, the pyramid’s hidden secret. What a futile search!

THE SIX HUMAN CHAKRAS MEET IN THE MIDDLE (THE 7TH HIGHER SELF ALTERNATIVELY THE HEART). THE SNOWFLAKE SYMBOLIZES THE SACRED GEOMETRY OF LOVE AND HOW OUR PHYSICAL MANIFESTATION LOOKS, WHEN WE ARE IN BALANCE AND ALL CONDITIONS ARE RIGHT.

Add comment January 5, 2008
Now is Fire Phoenix – Antidote to Fear Paradigm!

GLASS WINDOW “CARPE DIEM” BY TESSA VERRECCHIA. ONLY WHERE THE PAST AND FUTURE MEET IN THE MIDDLE (THE NOW) CAN REBIRTH TAKE PLACE.
THE PAST IS OVER
THE FUTURE HOPE DEAD
ONLY MOMENT NOW
CREATIVE IN BETWEEN
SPARKS FIRE PHOENIX.
NOW I HAVE RELEASED SHADOW
SEEN MY ALTER EGOS INTERSECT.
LACK & COMPENSATION ALIGHT.
FEAR KEEPS PAST CHAINED.
PROMISES SPARK FUTURE DISAPPOINMENT
NOW ONLY OPTION.
NOT IN NARCISSISTIC IMPATIENCE
BUT AS IN COMPLETE.
I AM LOVE AND LOVEABLE NOW.
LOVING PARENTS
NEVER WITHOLD
OR ASK YOU TO STRUGGLE IN VAIN
THEY WANT PROGRESS
WITH PATS AND KISSES.
ONLY MILD DISCIPLINE IN TRUTH.
ABUSIVE PARADIGM KEEPS
CHILDREN IN CHECK
FEAR
PROMISE
STRUGGLE
WITHHOLDING.
NO TRUE LOVE REWARD
EVER POSSIBLE.
ONLY USE AND ABUSE.
TRUE SELF DENIED
ONLY LACK ALLOWED.
THE ARTIST LACKING COLOR
THE COMEDIAN LACKING HAPPINESS
THE TEACHER LACKING SPONTANEITY
THE POLITICIAN LACKING POWER.
COMPENSATING, NOT LOVING.
LET GO OF THIS ABUSIVE PARENT
BECAUSE THIS IS THE MATRIX WE CREATE
AND THE UNIVERSE MIRRORS BACK
IN ENDLESS ANGLES.
NOW IS THE SAVIOR: NOW IS EDEN: NOW IS THE FIREBIRD REBORN. NOW IS THE ALLSEEING EYE.
NOW IS WHERE ALL OPPOSITES MEET
AND ALL PARTS TAKEN BACK TO SPIRIT.
NOW IS EVERY HEARTBEAT SPARKING ANEW.
NOW NOW NOW
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TO SEE WHAT
WE GIVE OFF
WHEN WE LIVE
IN THE NOW!
Add comment January 3, 2008
The World As Optical Mirage or Inner Core?

IN PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN, THE PEARL HAD TO TURN UPSIDE DOWN TO GET TO THE OTHER SIDE. THE VESSEL (BODY, FEET) TOWARDS THE SKY AND THE SAILS (HEAD, THOUGHTS) DOWNWARDS, INTO THE SEA – LIKE THE HANGED MAN IN TAROT.
The “Illusion of the Maya” (physical world) consists of one simple rule. Nothing is what it seems optically. It is only with inner knowing and looking within, that we find the truth.
This sounds incredible, but I have come to understand it may be so.
If the Earth LOOKS blue and filled with water, chances are its essence is fire/energy. If Venus looks the opposite, it may be water-like. If the secret is within, perhaps what is unmanifest/spiritual lies in the core, not above? If we see color, maybe its all one color. If the Sun looks bright, perhaps it is the other way somehow? Perhaps what is seen (matter) is what matters the least?
And it may very well be so that for example darkness is the primary transporter of light.

WHAT A RADIANT EMITTING STAR! WELL NO, ITS A REFLECTIVE IRIDIUM SATELLITE. LOOKS CAN DECEIVE AND MANY THINGS WE TAKE FOR GRANTED ARE NOT AT ALL THAT WAY. “OUTER VISION” IS A VERY UNRELIABLE MEASURE OF THINGS, YOU NEED TO GO DEEPER, WITHIN, TO FIND THE TRUE NATURE OF THINGS, EVEN SCIENTIFICALLY.
Emitting = Masculine 1
Reflective = Feminine 0
Add comment January 1, 2008
The Universe(s) Own Fireworks Says Happy New Life!

THE UNIVERSE’S OWN FIREWORKS ARE SUPERNOVAS. THEY ARE PROOF THAT WHAT WE THINK OF AS DEATH IS ACTUALLY THE BEGINNING OF LIFE. THE ENORMOUS BURST OF ENERGY CAN RADIATE AS MUCH ENERGY AS THE SUN WOULD EMIT OVER 10 BILLION YEARS. IT CAN ALSO TRIGGER THE FORMATION OF NEW STARS.

THE FIFTH ELEMENT AND SUPERNOVAS. WHAT IF EARTH IS NOT IN ESSENCE WHAT WE THINK? OPTICAL ILLUSIONS ABOUND AND THE APPEARANCE IS OFTEN QUITE CONTRARY TO THE ESSENCE. PERHAPS WATER, FOR EXAMPLE IS REALLY THE CREATIVE FIRE?
Perhaps we will one day discover how we always thought that the Sun is the EMITTER of energy and light, but that it may very well be the REFLECTOR of consciousness emitting light… Perhaps we get light/energy through our crown from above, we then disperse it outwards through the heart and so on (cyclical process?)… This is also why balance is so important, so all colors are inside us and white light can be present?
Nothing is as it seems, but so much better and perhaps our planet is truly some kind seed in a grander Divine belly? Perhaps God and Goddess are just two ends of the same Source, just as the crown and root in the human body?
It is good to look at things in a new way, using your heart!

VISIBLE LIGHT AND INFRARED LIGHT.
PERHAPS WHAT WE SEE IS NOT HOW IT LOOKS?
HAPPY ABUNDANT 2008!
Add comment December 30, 2007
Does the Rainbow Prove the World is Upside Down?

A RAINBOW DOES NOT ACTUALLY EXIST AT A PARTICULAR LOCATION IN THE SKY. IT IS AN OPTICAL ILLUSION WHOSE APPARENT POSITION DEPENDS ON THE OBSERVER’S LOCATION AND THE POSITION OF THE SUN. BUT IT SURE LOOKS REAL!
I’ve often wondered why the 7 (chakra) colors of the rainbow are ”upside down.” That is, the red is closest to the sky and the indigo colors are towards earth. Red stands for the root and the most manifest and the bluer color for the higher chakras.
The Wikipedia explains: “More rarely, a secondary rainbow is seen, which is a second, fainter arc, outside the primary arc, with colours in the opposite order, that is, with violet on the outside and red on the inside.”
Now I know why the colors are reversed! Because spirit/unmanifest is the origin, the root, the thing that physical creation springs from. And that’s why the manifest is in the sky! We are today but a fainter arc, a shadow of the REAL rainbow. We think it is only the matter that matters.
Turn it upside down (the right way) and you will live your life in the chalice/womb. This is being SUPPORTED, bathing, swimming easily just like dolphin (that’s why we love them so much – they represent ourselves in the original blueprint). Stop living your life under the parasol/helmet, with the universe as a burden on your shoulder, like a very tired Atlas. This is struggle, control, fear and burden.
That is what is meant by: “Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; but I tell you, not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.” In our natural state (without the ego blingbling), our physical manifestation was to be effortless (just as the baby grows in the belly). But now we have learned that there is struggle and that we are not provided for. And if our thoughts are like that, so will our physical world be. Full of struggle.
The physical matrix ALWAYS reflect what we feel and think and how much we tend to spirit. If we are not “connected”, we cannot expect Eden to be mirrored on earth…
I have no doubt in my mind, that if we change this matrix, we will one day only direct loving intent and the manifestation will come instantly and effortlessly. But this means having a pure heart and mind first, as well as connecting to the 7th chakra above. So that only the most high self will manifest (not ego, fear or lack).
Wikipedia also states: “The Irish leprechaun’s secret hiding place for his pot of gold is usually said to be at the end of the rainbow. This place is impossible to reach, because the rainbow is an optical effect which depends on the location of the viewer. When walking towards the end of a rainbow, it will move further away.”
Yes, as long as you think you will find it in the external world (which is truly an optical effect). But when you find its origin is WITHIN, the pot of gold (truth and light) is yours. The holy grail has been within you all this time and it is a light vessel of beauty and perfection.
LOOK AT JOHANNNES – THE IGNITING FIRE IS ABOVE AND CREATES HIS PHYSICAL MANIFESTATION BELOW (NOTE THE ARROW TO THE RIGHT POINTING TO THE SKY AND HIS HEART GLOWING). AND HOW HE FORMS THE PHI AS BLACK AND WHITE MEET (SPONTANEOUS PIC).
Add comment December 27, 2007
Merry Quintessence & Abundant 2008!

WHEN ALL OUR CHAKRAS ARE LIT, THE PYRAMID’S CROWN (QUINTESSENCE) LITS UP. THIS IS THE STAR OF BETHLEHEM OR VENUS, AND SYMBOLIZES THE RETURN OF THE GODDESS AND BALANCE ON EARTH AND IN THE SKY. WE CONNECT ONCE AGAIN TO SPIRIT! THE DIVINE PHALLUS/TOWER/PYRAMID IS TRUNCATED AND WE CAN BECOME ANOINTED WITH LIGHT/ABUNDANCE.

THEN ENLIGHTENED SANTA IN RED ROOT COLOR CAN COME THROUGH OUR CROWN CHIMNEY (BIRTH CANAL/KUNDALINI/SPINE DESCENDING) DOWN TO EARTH, AND LAY THE MANIFEST BABY BUNDLES IN ABUNDANCE AT THE BASE OF THE PYRAMID. THE MANIFEST IS CREATED OUT OF BALANCE AND COMPLETENESS. HE IS THE LAUGHING BUDDHA WITH A BELLY TO RUB FOR GOOD LUCK OR KOKOPELLI WITH HIS 0 HUNCHBACK FILLED WITH 1 SEEDS! A “NEW” PARADIGM MAN FOR SURE
HIS REINDEER CAN FLY, WHICH MAKES THEM SYMBOL OF BOTH OUR ANIMAL AND HIGHER NATURE. AND OF COURSE SANTA PULLS HIS GIFTS FROM THE GREAT OLE 0 SACK OR CORNUCOPIA!
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